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Happy Sunday!
April 29, 2018
Hi! Welcome to my blog, Chasing Sundays.
Sundays to me, mean being home, smelling something on the stove, listening to my kids play or a game being watched on tv, just being.
After my divorce, I’ve been chasing that Sunday vibe, seeking new traditions and comforts, stumbling the whole way, holding on to people that have failed to give me that same feeling. It has taken a few years to realize that what I need can only come from being my authentic self, simply by being me.
I hope this blog connects with you on some level, maybe you’ve experienced the same feelings of loss and heartbreak, and just wanting to be home on a Sunday, instead, looking forward to the craze of Monday because only then will you escape feeling alone.
For now, I’m coming home on Sunday, here, in my new blog, by writing.
It has been years since I wrote anything, the last being a play. That play had the opportunity to be read aloud, to me, and a small audience around the year 2000. I don’t remember how it went because I blocked it out. I was too focused on not running out of the tiny theatre where my acting teacher at the time sat at the doorway. He was focused on pulling something out of me that he knew was there. I still needed convincing. I remember sweating so bad, I just wanted it to end. My words being read back to me felt raw, almost shameful. Who was I to write a play?
I never wrote again. Until now. And as I write this, I can still feel the sweat, the lump in my throat, I am still holding back.
But I want to go home. I want to stop chasing Sunday and just be freaking home already.
8 Comments
Love you
Nic,
Your message is loud and clear, and now it’s out there for friends – old and new to enjoy. You will surely inspire others to find their own Sundays to chase! You are the here and now.
What a gift your words and courage to share are. Looking forward to being a witness and friend in your journey ❤❤ Your authenticity is a true inspiration for others. Way to share your light.
Sharing yourself with others and not being afraid allows others to open up and grow. Looking in the mirror can be daunting but when you start to peel away the layers and all you see is YOU, it is healing and raw. Thank you for bringing “real” back into this town and for all survivors of life.
Nicole
I absolutely can relate to chasing Sunday. I always felt that when my kids were young we were so busy and in a good way. But, I used to think when they got older I would have more time, we would have so much more time in our life. Enter demanding jobs, family getting sick and dying too young, aging parents. Losing parents. Life got more complicated even though it’s still a good life. I constantly go back to what you said about just being my true authentic self. It makes life so much easier when you don’t have to hold on to what is holding you back and be able to start shedding the layers that wrap around us that we can’t find that person that we trust we know is inside. Instead of showing up for others day after day as the person they expect to see. Yoga has been my the influencer and teacher that guides me. Your blog will be the start of my Sankalpa Sunday. New beginnings. Thank you. Shine bright! So proud!!!
Can’t wait to continue to follow your journey to your own heart. You go girl, so happy for you!
Beautiful message here Nicole, I am looking forward to hearing your thoughts and being inspired by your dedication! Thank you
Beautiful. Love your voice and all that you have to say. I want to read the play!